Thinkies...

“I would like to make a toast to lying, stealing, cheating and drinking. If you're going to lie, lie for a friend. If you're going to steal, steal a heart. If your going to cheat, cheat death. And if you're going to drink, drink with me.”

Go girl, it's your birthday.

I can't remember the last time I bothered to keep track of my thoughts. I used to be able to sit down and write everything - and write things of some substance too... but these days I just can't. This will be my attempt to. Hm. I recently found out that someone actually reads my blog - thank you gorgeous. This brings me to a quote I want to dedicate to you anonymous - Even if saving you sends me to heaven.

Because you are certainly not going there before me... I will explain that one to you one day.

The year is half over, it's June. My birthday has passed already and it passed way too fast for my liking - Thank you EVERYONE for the most amazing birthday I've ever had.

So much has changed in the last few months. I learnt a lot but still I'm back to square one. Maybe I can retrace my steps but knowing what I didn't know back then. I guess that's the best way to look at it...

Feeling lit, feeling light..

Technically it's Sunday, but for most it's a 'Saturday night'. Tonight I'm not most, because for me, it's Sunday and I'm sitting writing this from the warmth of my bed listening to Justin Bieber (he makes me happy).
Things are making me twitch this week. Friends, non-friends, ex-friends...
I've found that there are a few types of girls in this world. The Mean Girls quote has so much truth behind it I've decided to stick by it:
'Look, there's good and bad to everybody right?
Regina's just...
She's more up-front about it'
All girls have bitchiness lying somewhere within them, some are just more up front about it.
Then there are the ones who keep it quiet, right up until they're done bottling it all up and bring it up with the boyfriend. That dreaded 'She brings up all this old crap...' Seriously, if you have a problem with what your boyfriend is doing please save them the utter frustration and just tell them. It's their problem if they don't understand.
Then. There's the sort that just gets at me. If I had to deal with a girl like this it would eat on the inside until I started to rott on the outside.
The immature, 'lets make that girl's life hell because she screwed my best friends ex boyfriend but didn't even know about it...' girl. Seriously though, blah.. blah... blah. Nobody is listening to you darling, in fact, people are sitting minding their own business but can't help but LAUGH at how pathetic you are in public! The act is so cute, keep it up, you'll go so far in life with some really good friends with you too. It's so nice getting all your little friends involved, team effort is so good to see... shows you're a real true team player! Posting stuff on your facebook and on all your friends facebook's for that matter about other girls boyfriends, just so their girlfriends see, it is just so cute as well, it's almost as if she will care! It's a very well done effort with you and your posse of dumb bitches. Making your life public online for all the attention is pretty cool as well, I almost want to be part of it all and suck up some attention with you.
But instead I'm going to sit here minding my own business... and just laugh at how pathetic you are.
Peaceeee.

Staying Positive

Sometimes, I get that overwhelming sensation of loneliness. But that's okay, because I know that one day that feeling will disappear and the person who makes it disappear will make me feel like I was never lonely - and never will be lonely again.

Grow up

It simply amazes me how immature people can be. I once heard that the maturity of a male develops at a slower rate as the female's maturity level as they both grow older. This, however I believe is not true. In some cases I'm seeing girls grow more immature as they grow older, and in other cases I see mere sixteen year olds with more maturity than a twenty year old. Please, I beg you. Get real. This is the real world and kissing a boy to get revenge, or yelling 'SLUT' at some girl you don't know is gonna' get you no where. It just proves how much of a loser you really are. Come say it to my face next time, you won't be so brave then.

Be careful what you wish for;

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars,
I could really use a wish right now

overwhelmed

So what happens when you finally get what you dreamed of? Dreams from both the past and the present...?
It feels great, just too good to be true... but now I truely do believe good things come to those who wait for them. A childhood dream that was buried deep inside my mind somewhere has resurfaced and the dream every girl chases - a boy, has arrived right upon my door step. One step at a time G, you don't want to mess this up.
Nervous about the job interview tomorrow... this child hood dream may just follow through.